array of thoughts ranging in seriousness

First thought is rather serious.
I used to think that I was safe around my friends' husbands. And nothing bad has ever happened, but this past week in Care Group (which is the weekly meeting of smaller size from church where we gather for fellowship and discussion) my pastor's wife was sharing with the ladies how her friend in California and her husband became friends with another couple. They grew so close that there was a point of inappropriateness. The California lady told my pastor's wife to never get to the point where you are comfortable call or receiving calls from your friend's husband just to chat or seek advice. Women be friends with women, and men be friends with men. While I would never seek to purposefully make my friends' husbands stumble, and vice versa, we should keep our lives so far above reproach as to not give the devil a foothold.
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on forgiveness
Have you ever just become overwhelmed with feelings of sorrow and regret over past sins and wrongdoings? Maybe you hit your younger sister, or yelled at her; or maybe you said something mean to your mother, or humiliated your dad. I've done all these things. Sometimes I just cry over what I've done and I think "How could they ever forgive me?"

Here's my comforting thought - they've done all those same things to me. And I've forgiven them. I don't remember the pain that they've caused me. So why do I think that they are constantly dwelling on the pain that I have caused them?

This is Christ in us. We forgive as we have been forgiven. We love because He first loved us. God enables us to forgive and He enables us to love even after wrong-doings. God loves me even after my constant rebellion and hatred toward Him. He enables me to love Him. He enables my family to love Him too. I see the regenerate work of the Spirit and know that they've forgiven me just as my Father has forgiven me. I no longer need to feel shame.
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Something about judging..
Matthew 7:1 - judge not, that you be not judged.
Matthew 7:2 - for with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.

So forgive me if this is incorrect. I'm not a Bible scholar.
I shouldn't judge because that means that I will be judged by the same standard. So if I say, "hey, that man is bad because he is not as good as me," then someone else can say the same thing. Perhaps God would say, "you judge that man to not be as good as you, and I will use the same standard: you are not as good as me." That's a scary thought. I might say, "this person is good because he is better than me," then God would judge, "that person is not good because he is not better than Me. You are not good either because you are not better than me."

John 7:24 - judge with right judgment
Here, Jesus tells us to judge. But this manner of judgment is right. If I judge by what is right, then I say the standard is righteousness. I still fall short. The blood of Jesus cleanses me from all wrong-doing. I am clothed in Christ's righteousness. Now, I judge, "this man has no fruit showing his submission to Christ," and God will judge me, "that man has no propitiation, but your propitiation has been accepted through My glory and My sacrifice and My blood." My judgment is not my own. I condemn no one. I may judge, "this person has accepted Christ's propitiation. He stands righteous," then God would judge, "Just as this person has accepted My atonement and stands forgiven, so you have accepted My atonement and stand forgiven."

I don't mean that we can come up with any standard we want. "This person is GOOD because he is who he is." God would judge, "this person is not good because he is not who I am."

...I don't know, just random thoughts.
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on complaining
Keeping in mind that by "Christian" I don't mean a box you check when filling out an application. I mean a genuine love of Christ as a devoted worshiper.
I am not a Christian because of what presents God gives me. Whether those presents be monetary, wisdom, knowledge, position, recognition, a job, fame, peace, joy, or even salvation. I am a Christian because He deserves my love and more. That He chooses any good thing for me is far more that I should think I deserve.
I live for Christ, not for the gifts of Christ.
Whenever I complain I should remember what Oscar (my friend) said. He told me that whenever he starts complaining about something, maybe God didn't do something the way he wanted Him to, he feels God reply back, "Yea, remember that whole salvation thing?"
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I don't know about this one:
Is the feeling of awkwardness a sin? Feeling prideful is a sin. Feeling bold in Christ is not a sin.
Awkwardness...is sin, or no?
Does is stem from sin? If I am feeling awkward, is it because I have just done something sinful? I say something. Everyone stares at me. I realize I just said something bad. Instead of apologizing and accepting forgiveness, I feel awkward and stare back. In the opposite scenario, you say something bad. In stead of asking for clarification, or instead of thinking the best of you and assuming you didn't mean it the way it came out, or knowing you meant what you said and instead of letting you know that I think it inappropriate, I stare at you making you uncomfortable too. Maybe you enjoy making people uncomfortable.

I could ask a lot of leading questions. But basically, my opinion is that while awkward feelings are not sin, the usually occur because the person is sinning. If I am embarrassed because you just said some uncouth thing about me, then perhaps I think too highly of myself. maybe? or maybe I think too highly of man's approval of me?

This is more a silly rant than a serious one. I have a couple of friends who enjoy making people uncomfortable. This is where these thoughts stem from, not a serious introspective reflection of the inner man. But maybe it should have.
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ok, forgive me on this one, I just had a bunch of friends get married or start into new relationships:
If marriage is meant to reflect God's pursuit of the Church, then women = Church, men = God -for the purposes of the analogy (disclaimer: I have never met a man that I confused for God. I have met many men that I confused for pond scum.).
So husbands are to reflect God's character:
God is LOVE.
Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, love does not ENVY or BOAST, it is not ARROGANT, or RUDE; love is not insistent on its OWN WAY, it is not IRRITABLE or RESENTFUL.
LOVE BEARS ALL THINGS
ENDURES ALL THINGS
God is wise, loves children and wants many children. Once natural children have stopped being added, He adopts.
Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, Self-control.
Just as Christ gave himself for the Church, so the husband must give himself for the wife.While the church is unruly and whore-mongering, Christ is faithful and forgives all her sins, so a husband will continue his affection even while his wife is unfaithful.
As you can imagine, its very easy for women to be the church since both are sinful and I mean FULL of sin. But I admire men who persevere and strive for the goal when the prize is dim and so far out of reach, especially when they are surrounded by less-than-worthy women. A man grows with Christ and in Christ, and Christ renews and regenerates him making him ready for his bride and to be Christ's bride.
I don't mean to excuse women, only to present this in a semi-humorous way. Woman must strive after God as well.
We all have the hope or the promise that we will one day be the bride. And if God should see fit to receive glory through me being a bride twice, I hope that my husband and I will take the gauntlet together and reflect the salvation plan through our marriage.
God has set the standard high for husbands and I will follow my Father's footsteps and set the standard high for my husband. God has granted forgiveness and grace and mercy and I will follow my Father's footsteps and grant forgiveness and grace and mercy.